Since the strom past away, the silver lining was shining again. Thanks to everyone support. It's not really sad if I try to look at other people who has to face tougher time in life. I'm so  much better than those. Here is some what his comfort

"We make our own happiness...comes from who we are and how we view our experiences...not from anything other give or take.

Happiness is choice not reaction."

So now I choose to live my life as I am the one who makes my own happiness not the other.