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Positive Energy

I'm in a very delightful mood today, even though on the way home l saw a terrible accident on the street. Is it just me or it's the weather and ambient of everything. But the city itself is not as much delightful as it's used to be before the Tidal waves hit the coast of south and southeastern Asia. I feel love. I feel love in the air. I feel love for the man who's exist. Even the my dating career is not shining like I want it to be but I'm still smiling. On the road I take for my life, no matter how it'll be dark and lonely or bright and colorful, I'll head on because it's life I'll have to with, myself, for better or worse I have myself to be happy with.

I'm content. Life is not exactly the way I plan but if everything is as easy as I want then I might not try harder to be a better person than I am now.

Stay Happy Everyone.

Tsunamis

The candle light, laughter and joy of Christmas hadn't been away yet at the time when the deadly Tsunamis had enter the south-western coast of Thailand on December, 26. Thousand died, thousands injured and thousands missing. No one can shed thier flowing tears of such tragic catastrophe event. Nothing could compare to what they'd been through but only love and good will will make them stronger and ove forward with the live they have left among themself.

The Story After "Life of Pi"
A 9 years old boy were floating un th emiddle of the sea for a day after the boat he was aboard with his family were swept away by the 10 meter high tidal waves, caused almost everyone missing but the brave little child who managed to hold on to a piece of wood from the wrecked boat. He stayed afloat for a day until he was found by the patrol helicopter.

Beloved Royal Family Member Lost
Not far from the Andaman's Pearl Island, Phuket, His Marjesty the King's Nephew had been reported missing after the Tsunamis had hit the shore of th eare without notice while he was on his jet skiing accompany with 4 security guards, later 2 of them found dead near by the beach and other 2 severely injured. He's missing until an authority found him in the nearby hotel where his breathless body lying. The Pricess' younger brother had flown to the island himself to bring back his sister and his nephew. Heart was broken.

Double Unlucky
A Swiss family, Father, Mother, 2 kids has lost every possession they belong that they'd left in their hotel room but that's not cause them pain more than their lost member, an 11 years old boy who migt never come back, to thier open arms, again.

Hope those who lost their lives to rest in peace.

Gay Men Therapy Part 1: Side Effect May Occur

Earlier yesterday before rushing out of the house just to go to work ontime, I just happened to glance at the photo sticker I took with bunches of close friends from Chula. With surprise to myself, I look really young those days ( about 6 years ago which means I was 19-20 years old ). Ugh..I felt chilling on the back of my spine. I am now and becoming old, well I know that 25 is NOT old but I just feel that i've been so far until I got to this point where I got make my own living now. Anyway, with that split second I thought about my dear hair dresser whi's behind my glorious days back then. I need to see him, I told myself that.

Later in the evening I decided to give a day off from pumping iron and head to the salon. Oh dear where was he? I asked myself. Never mind that, maybe I should try someone else though. ( I met him there since I was in 11th grade and only trust him since then ) Anyway, I heard him talking behind the salon so I took him eventually.

The wash-cut-wash-blow-cut process was done perfect, and a little chitchat, as it always is until one point he just look at me and said:

Mighty Hair Dresser: You act too old, you know that?
Ben Behaving Badly: Excuse me, what did you just say?
Mighty Hair Dresser: You look old, acted old. What's happened to you? wher is that bright and shiny kid I once knew?
Ben Behaving Badly: Ugh..

Less than 5 minutes after I left the salon, I made many phone calls to ask my friends that am I really acting old or what. My heart knows that they would say yes but not in the bad way because they think that I've grown up and speak less and more controllable about myself but that was from growing adult process. All those non sense seems not fun to me anymore.

Alright I admit that I act old but I think it's part of the process of growing up wher I'm influenced by the reality check for most of the time but it's also come with every aspect in your life too. For example, theway I dress. I don't wear flashy or too trendy cloth anymore but more focus on something simple and neat. Imagine it this way, back theer 5 years ago I was like a model from Christian Dior Haute Couture's Paris, well not that exubulant but pretty much but today I still consider myself god dresser maybe like Gianfranco Ferre, simple design but very nice details, good structure and neat.

Anyway, I woke up this morning and found myself a hard time getting  something to wear just like almost everymorning now but today it's different because I'll go for younger look. Ugh..It's so hard being 25 and have to act just like one but one thing for sure his haircut he gave me truely helps.

(Muscle) Merry X Mas to Y'all.

Little Big Dreams Come True

In the mist of career dullness, I,m trapped here 1 week til new year with 3 more movie production notes plus stories to be done, I haven't mentioned that I'm bored to death about my job, right?. I'm like a dead man working with lack of inspiration left. Even don't know which direction I'd go for. Where is all the dream that I ever imagine about? I'm stuck.

Finally my long, long, long, long, really awaited childhood dream has come true when I got offer to help one of the people who do subtitle for the movie. Yeah, sounds cool isn't it? Honestly I don't think about that financially at all because all I want is just to put my name at the end of the movie that I do subtitle work for. But I don't think that I'll get my credit from doing that the first time though but you know at least I already made my first entrance to the monopolzed business already.

If you can read thai subtitle in many hollywood movies, you'd probably see that there are only 3 people doing subtitle from over 100 foreign movies a whole 52 weeks in a year. See how tough that is. So the thing is that that guy had asked me a month ago about me helping him but it didn't happen after all cos he never gave me the material to work and the first attempt went by. Now he's back asking me to help doing English subtitle for a thai movie called "Mon-Rak-Look-Tung". Ugh..sounds very challenging, isn't it? I'll keep you posted on this matter cos I'll go finishing that plus my loaded day work.

Miss you and mr. canadian very much.

Be good everyone.

Me Improvement?

Oh baby, I'm back. In case that you might ( or might not ) wondering where I had been for the last 3-4 weeks, I didn't go anywhere though. First it started with lack of inspiration as you can see in the post where there were nothing but bitching about bad cases in men which I seemed to fall for the same pattern again and again and it's NOT creative enough so I stop to take a little break from it and gather myself, my thought and my strenght once again until it's a good time to blog again :)

OK, here are few example about what I get from being away:

1. I AM certainly Carey Bradshaw. After watching much of the last season of Sex and the City til last week episode, Splat, where she was asked by her russian lover to go to live with him in Paris and almost everybody seems to be excited about that except for the Ms. Miranda-Reality-Check-Bit ch who thinks that Carey moving away from her beloved NYC is such a stupid thing to do but Carey thinks otherwise and thinks that Miranda is selfish because she's always around when she needs her and not there when she wants her friends to. Honestly I felt like that sometimes, when "people" want me then I'll be there but it's not that way when I want them. I am running around entertaining people. I thought I was happy but certainly it's not. I was dreaming. To realize that is truely heartfelt.

2. A friend indeed is a friend in need. Koby, yes that Koby. He got a flu that started infected badly to his tonsil and stomach and finally reahed his eyes. For the old time sake I went to accompany him, buying food and stuffs and talked to him until he fell asleep. Oh How sweet. Finally he got admitted to a hospital where I went to see him again for an evening. He seemed thankful for that. We are good friends.

3. Can't you just read the sign. The last time I got hit on, I mean really hit on by Thai guy was the first time I came out about 5 years ago. And last sunday after finishing working out in mid afternoon there came a thai-chinese guy trying VERY hard to talk to me, so I made his day dream come true, I said hi.

4. The fact that I might be different doesn't make me special. Yes, finally I can conclude that after reevaluate the thought again and again for almost a year. Even though the feeling is dead for ages now but just can't help thinking that I might be special but the fact prooves itself that I'm not. I'm done.

5. The fact that I might be more beautiful doesn't make me get mo' men. Hehe.. just kidding. I feel really good about myself actually even though that darn favourite instructor asked me if I just ate big meal. RRRRRR!!!

Be good everyone.