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Cute Devil, Popsicle and King of Both Worlds

10.31.04 (6:27 pm)   [edit]

The Halloween has passed already. I didn't plan to go out at all but after having dinner with koby, we headed for drinks at the telephone bar down in soi 4 with Raymond and his friend. It's pretty ok actually even though I thought that it'd be very crowded and packed but luckily it's better than I thought. And coming to this point I'll have to say that Sak is one of my favorite waiter there. For some reason he's the only waiter who always has a smile for me. I thought that he's nice to me because I was with one of the farang friends ( or customers ) that he knows but it's not that at all sometimes I went there with someone else he still gives me that cutey lil' smile. How lovely he is.

Anyway, the whole evening was full of laughter, smiles, thoughts and text messaging with my friend ( you know who you are ). It went like this:

Me  : Happy Halloween, wish you a scary sunday :p
Him : Oh benny, it's scary everytime I look into a mirror. Wish you a very happy and good luck  with a cute devil.
Me  : Oh dear the only thing you see in the mirror is an angel, please keep telling yourself that and actually there is no cute devil for me at all :p
Him : There is the cute devil for you benny. You just have to wait cos he has to possess some smartness and luck to be your boyfriend.

Honestly I was touched by that very much. But for a while it's the virgo in me that pays attention to every little datails. Don't get me wrong I do appreciate his encouragement but just got little wonder that :

Do people need that smartness to see what really is inside of you?

The answer might be Yes, I think that's a good thing though cos whne they see what lies inside and they lik eit so it'll be something that last longer than what people value on the label or package outside. But that means people will have to spend time with you long enough to realize that ugh...May be I'll have to admit that I'm not a popsicle that is look really yummy on the outside and taste really good inside too :p

Noone can be king of both worlds I guess.

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Update on M.

Thought that I'd meet him again on Sunday but didn't happen after all because he's hung over from the night of heavy drinking with his colleague. I called him a couple of times on Sunday and no answer. Thought that my dating career was really doom but finally he called back around 11.45 pm. Ooh boy, you just made my day. Reaaly wanna kiss you now :-x

Promising Materials?

10.28.04 (7:10 pm)   [edit]

After 8 months from my first date with Pat. ( that ended up in disaster )this year, I went for the dinner with him again, just for the friendship sake. He's bitchy as always and I'm arrogant as usual. We were spending time bitching about stuffs that happened while we were busy with ourselves.

The highlights of the whole evening was "Ben 360-Self Evaluation Session" with Dr. Pat. As always, I usually ask my ex-dates to tell me what's not so good about me, I mean what about me that they don't like. Not that I want to dig up th ehistory but I just want to know what people might think about me. Honestly I think that self evaluation is not enough because chances are that you'll be bias over yourself, so why not ask someone who might be close to you enough to realize how I am.

"Promising Materials" that's what he told about me. He's still wondering why I'm still single. How sad. Anyway, we had come to the conclusion that it might have to take th eright time and the right place and most importantly the right person to form a relationship. And after all there might not be anything wrong with me. Really?

About M., Pat encourage me to give myself and him some more time and the fact that he's occupied by his job and still can find time to call and talk to me almost everynight is GOOD enough, if not why should he bother? OK, I'll give a try. Will keep you posted.

Have a good weekend everyone.

Sea of Jaded-ness

10.26.04 (10:58 pm)   [edit]

I think that I have come to the point where I have to admit that the SOBER side of me has become JADED already. Arghhh and th ebad part is that I'm stuck in this mood already even though I try to stay afloat but seems like I'll be drowned in the sea of jaded-ness. I thought that I have my saviour out there somewhere but apparently I'll have to help myself. SAD.

Anyway, I think that I need something to heal and pamper my exhausted soul.

About my recent date, M. I think that their might be no hope for us...uhm to speak frankly, no hope for me. Last sunday I went over to his place and I ended up spend an extra over 30 minutes to find his place. Showing up all sweat. Damn!!! His smile did help. But th ewhole evening past with conversation and 45 minutes of my specialty, massage.

I think that when people get to this point, something, yes THAT something could happen, and guess what NOTHING happened. Uhm...I think that we are moving quite slow, too slow actually.

Second date I went to his place, gave him massage, saw half naked. But NO kiss or even a hug. I think I should consider the way out before this whole dating plane would crash out of pilot.

Shade of Buddhism : My Life After Being A monk

10.26.04 (7:44 pm)   [edit]

It's been a year already since I had stepped afoot into the shade of buddhism as a monk. A journey to serenity, tranquilization. My life changed dramatically. My way of thinking.

Learning to let go is one thing. Learning to realize that we should cherish what really matters to us most. Learning not to be bother with all th esmall things. Learning that life in sadness is just because we put ouself in there. Learning that we are the only one to make us happy. Learning that we can choose what we want to feel.

My life with the real perception of the world has just started.

An Evening In The Garden of Good and Bad Memories

10.24.04 (2:13 pm)   [edit]

Life can be pretty ridiculously interseting sometimes, especially when you try to put the bad, horrible, rather-forotten memory aside, it will come back on the surface once again. 

Today after spent the entire afternoon at the gym and waited for M. to call, but didn't happened at all, I headed to my favourite park, "Lumpinee Park" or I usually call it "Central Park", for unknown reason. I was walking around until I finally found quite a quiet spot so I was sitting there for an hour and a half. My mind was wandering, travelling throuh the memory good and bad. The last time I was there was a couple of days before Tom was leaving to Norway, the last time he kissed me...

And when I decided that it's time to go home, I started heading back to the entrance-and-also-exit gate, I looked up and see Tom running towards me. Honestly I didn't expect to see him at all or even I did expect to see him, I wouldn't much care about that. But he striked me with him saying that he misses me many times and ( sort of ) when he's in the park he would hope to see me again.

Well, well, well, mister. It's not that hard if you really wanna see me, it's not like you didn't have my number or anything. Oh yeah right now I remember, you mentioned before that I shouldn't call you and you considered not to call me back. What's the point of saying that you miss me anyway.

It surely was a wonderful moment in my life but the way it ended, I didn't even see any flash of friendships he's offering. It surely that he's a good friend and also good boyfriend but I guess that's for somebody else.

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Quote of the day
Bad experience when it comes back in the same form, it doesn't make you feel stronger at all, you may still cry but it'll make you realize what you should do next. 

The Thrill Is Gone

10.23.04 (6:47 am)   [edit]

Since the begining of this year I sort of seeing 3-4 people so far and they all ended not so good. Many of them ended after they left the kingdom to some other countries and the time when they were back, everything was changed. So I've come to this assumption saying that :

"I am not so lovable?" 

Things might sound really good on the phone and once the first date starts, the first kiss, the first night, then the thrill is gone. The meeting and sex will contin ue but without realize that the real DATE is over. Maybe I'm just fuck buddy materials but not boyfriend materials. And this year I have heard people saying things like, "Don't wait for me, if you meet someone nice just go and have a good time." and "I wish I know someone nice so I can introduce you to him."

If I am that good why not taking me, right?

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Quote of the day
Tear is meant for those who deserve it, but if he really deserves it, then he shouldn't even make you cry.

Parallel Universes And The Same Star

10.22.04 (1:22 am)   [edit]

Recently I have been with myself pretty much maybe because I feel sober lately. Life has been sort of so-so for almost 2 weeks now. Friends have niticed that I have become quieter than usual. Maybe I just don't have anything to talk. Anyway, after spent time working and few conversation with co-workers I decide to head out to the cafeteria to get my bottle of soya milk.

"You are not so talkative today." Co-worker asked.
"Yes." I replied.

Then another co-worker striked me with this question right out of the blue.
"Which one of the guys you have been with that you are always thinking of the most?"
Without a second to think about that I said "Mr. P"

I met Mr. P not so long after september 11, 2001. So now it's been about 3 years now and honestly there were time when we were not talking to each other anymore for a while but finally we come back to talk to each other again and the friendships has grown stronger from there. I think that we agree at one point that there wouldn't be the dat when we are really together. It's been like he knows what he doesn't like about me and sort of running away from there and he would found himself attracted to the person with same thing that he's just running away from. Funny isn't it?

Our life path has once intersected but we also have our own course of life that we have to be apart. It is like 2 parallel universe that will not go the same direction and you have to look closely if not you might see that it could meet one day.

Anyway, I think that I can say that he's ONE of the guys in my life that always come to my mind. I always feel good to hear from him no matter what he's doing I wish him the best he can get. When I look up to the sky to night, I hope that we are looking at the same star.

Save You To Save Me

10.21.04 (6:05 am)   [edit]

Oh dear, last night was going really good even though it's sort of not according to what I expected at all. Had dinner with Mark and talking about things, MY things actually. It's quite good though that I was ranting about guys, and Mark was sort of suspecting that I might not be over Koby yet because I just blew him off by the excuse of dropping by to see if Koby is not too ill from flu. His theory was that I was trying to find an excuse to getting back to him and maybe he would be awkae and welcome me in again. O wo he was SO wrong!!! I did that because of the friendship sake which at some point, not just him, I feel like a B call. But it is alright though, if I'm sick, I'd be glad if there is somebody taking care of me even though for just a lil bit. I'll make long story short, I didn't show up at his place anyway.

On my way home with the guilt written on my mind, I called him when I got home sort of seeing if he's ok and he's ok as I expected. I think the only reason why I felt guity because that I believe that things that makes a person a person is his doing. I mean I'd consider myself SOMEONE if I can do anything or help anyone out. I think that it is phychological explainable though.

I think I can make myself feeling good by helping someone. Or I am helping someone just because I want to help myself out?

 

Update on my latest date

After trying to play it cool with M and not calling him first, well actually just did send him text message around midnight which is the time that he's home from long hour of working. Last night, he texted message me first, oooh honestly I was sort of wondering if I should do that again last nigt but it's just happened that he did it first. Bingo!!! Acccording to my plan, he hooked my sweetness, hehehe, I had been told about the "Attack-With-My-Sweetness Strategy ( more on this strategy later ) from Mark last week and had been thinking about using part of it. Hmm..seems to work quite good. Anyway, I texted him back and just couldn't wait for his response so I just called him. I think it's a good thing to do too because from the last 2 times he called me from his cell phone and we were talking for more than an hour each time so I think it'd nice if I will call him sometimes. We talked a bit until one point I suggested that we should use home phone because we might not want to extend our phonebill but he was waiting for his friend to call so that was it, we went back to working on his computer with a promise that if he didn't called me later he'd call me again today....yippy!! I love this feeling!!!

What They Had Taught Me In School Is So Wrong!!!

10.20.04 (2:37 am)   [edit]

Since the first day in kindergarten til the last day in high school, I always considered myself as a good kid, I never skipped class at all, well if I just don't wanna go, then I won't. Even though my grade was sort of ok, not too good and not too bad, maybe just th ekind of student who got away with studying, but for sure I was many teachers' darling. Hehehe. Even though cahnces were I'd be weak in some subject especially Math but I still could manage to make my teacher loves me. But luck wasn't always on my side. And I'm not quite sure about my PE teacher who ran away with someone else's bride.

Physical Education is absolutely my weakest link. Let's say I'm lousy at sports not even when it comes to lecture class. I got away with the last PE class in 11th grade basketball because my tacher picked me to be the one who supervised and counted how many points the girls could do the lay up. Oh boy...I think that I had helped more than 80% of them, I guess what comes around, goes around. I got B from that class.

One thing I had learned from the PE classes since junior high school is that when boys and girls ( maybe more on the boys' sides ) reach the teenage chances are that they would be consumed by the curiosity of sex. Hmm..I don't know. I figured what masterbation is when I was around 14, the fact that I went to school for boys did help. You can imagine everyboy's talking about this and that. And I don't feel like sex is something forbidden, like the way Thai people treat, at all. When I was pretty much younger maybe around 10, a guy who's sort of trying to hit on my mother gave her a book that was suspeciously and securedly wrapped. My mom said that it was a book of nightmare which anyone read and the demon that was kept inside would be set free...Hmm...how old and stupid she thought I was...

Anyway, major thing I learned from PE classes is that "Go out and get something to do like sports to get rid of that exceeding energy ( a.k.a. horniness )." I thought that it was sort of true at soem point where you are busy doing aomething or playing in the courts or fields, you'd probably not have a second to think about what is raging between your legs. But I older I get, I wiser I'd become. Recently I just can find time to go to the gym again. Actually it is my excuse to socialize but my main target is that I'd be busy working out so I'd not think about boy's issue much. Honestly it does help, but one thing I notice about myself that is sometimes when I got that "feeling", I hit the gym, I even got more "intense feeling". O...what they had taught me in school, in the PE classes is so WRONG. 

"Go out and get something to do like sports to get rid of that energy." Oh, come on, get real. Change the cyllabus, change the subject or even the course!!! It is so not true. Not really though.

Ehh, is it just me? maybe the older I am, the hornier I become :p

Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow, My astrologer said...

10.18.04 (7:36 am)   [edit]
Horoscope of Sunday, 17 October 2004 for Ben, born 11 September 1979

Punctuated with humor
Today your thoughts are on light topics, and you find it difficult to take things seriously. Your good mood will affect every encounter today, making conversations agreeable, sociable and friendly, punctuated with humor. You are not likely to have any patience with serious or heavy topics, although you are willing to discuss relationships and matters pertaining to love and affection. You will find it very easy to express love and affection for others today, even if you are usually tongue-tied. If you want to say something to make a favorable impression on someone, you will succeed today. You can win people over by what you say and how you say it. This influence also favors commercial transactions and negotiations, particularly in the entertainment field.

Horoscope of Monday, 18 October 2004
for Ben, born 11 September 1979

Reflections
During this time, love and affection are strongly tempered by practical considerations. Sometimes under this influence you will ask an older person's advice about relationships, for you are reflecting about the state of your life and what your relationships mean to it. There is little tendency toward self- indulgence today. Your actions are characterized by restraint, which is usually good if you have to economize or recognize the limitations of your pocketbook. Under some conditions, this influence can indicate difficulties with your love relationships. You may not feel warm or affectionate, and you may alienate loved ones by seeming to be indifferent. A relationship that comes about during this time may be a long- lived but not flamboyant one, characterized by loyalty and soberness.

Horoscope of Tuesday, 19 October 2004
for Ben, born 11 September 1979

Personal magnetism
Today you will want to express yourself in as many ways as possible, but principally with someone else. You feel very affectionate and sociable, as well as just plain good. Your physical health is excellent, although you feel more like sitting around and luxuriating than like doing something vigorous. This is a good day to please yourself. The harsh realities of the everyday world do not appeal to you today, and you would enjoy escaping to a brighter and prettier world, which would do no harm. You may be quite popular today, as the magnetism of this influence attracts other people to you. Your relationships with men are likely to be better than those with women today, but both will be good. In either case, you will find that your own attractiveness is inexplicably enhanced by this influence.

Dating Pool

10.17.04 (11:47 am)   [edit]

Oh..well, well, well I think that I'm back in the arena of dating again, but I think that there are a slight change about that though. Number 1, it's way off romantic, we, me and M., meet up at Central Chidlom and the fact that it's been 2pm already and both of us just had lunch so we decided that to go to satrbucks for coffee would be nice, but it seems like everyplace in Bangkok has become crowded over the last 2 weeks. So we just grab our Mango Citrus Frappucino and head for food court. And again the place was really crowded but finally we got a table in the corner which is not really nice at all, but I think that the thing that matters the most is that we're sitting there and talking and talking. It was really nice though. We spent like an hour and a half for the conversation and my date ended up by he's going catching some sleep and I headed to my gym.

Hmm...I have to agree that I act differently for this guy, well I mean that I'm not getting over excited or being slutty and naughty at all. But I guess that I have come to the point where I realize that if thing will happen then let it happens. I just don't want to try too hard and get tired of it finally. I'm sick and tired of being everybody's a B-call.

Can't wait for the second date. Woo-hoo. 

Your Vote Counts!!!

10.14.04 (11:37 pm)   [edit]

This morning after the daily read, I found this interesting entry by Paul from Stuart's blog. It is very funny actually.

"In the most recent presidential election 105,360,260 people cast ballots. That means that each person's vote counted .000000949%. I defy you to find a mathematician who will tell you that number is less than or equal to zero. Okay, so we can agree, your vote counts. It counts .000000949%.

Swish that around in your mouth for a while. How does it taste?

Taste like freedom? 'Cause to me it tastes like jack-all squat."

- Stephen Colbert, America (The Book): A Citizen's Guide to Democracy Inaction

Only one thing after read this : Hahaha

Fisherman's Friend

10.14.04 (1:12 am)   [edit]

Sometimes I wonder that my life would be differently happy somewhere outside of Thailand. Mr. P once said that it wouldn't change a thing and it will be funny idea if I will just fly 1,000 miles away from home to catch guys. It is a practical and also funny idea indeed. Two years ago I had spent almost 6 months in the US. It was a horizon expanding trip. Meeting people and realize how the whole gay world operates ( well, I'll rephrase the "whole gay world" to just "another gay world" if that bother you :p Anyway, my idea is that once you are like a fisherman looking for a school of Tuna or whatsoever in the ocean or sea where there millions of other fishing boats floating all over the water what is the chance that you get "the fish" that you are really looking for, as much chance as you'll see a pig can fly. Even though there might not be as many "farangs" who likes asians oh well actually I was a farang myself actually but as there are here but I don't feel high competition at all. Or maybe I too enjoyed eveyminutes being there. I didn't get hooked up much at all but that's a good thing though. It's like a learning experience for me.

Here is the thing that usually happen here under the sky of the city of angels, Bangkok. Everyonce in a while when I go to out to either soi 4 or 2 I can sense the very strong and envy aura out of the people all the time and one more thing that sort of irritates me is that when I am with someone ( I mean if he's just a friend not a date ) and what on earth that they still give that look to the person I'm with...I know that it's the way people do all the time but for myself I won't give that look to someone who's with somebody else. I think I'm kinda funny on this matter, hehe...guess that it's just me :)

Anyway, I think that no matter where I go, the only thing that matter the most is that I am just who I am and don't pretend to be something else, with or without guys I'll be humbly happy Fisherman in the ocean of gay men.

PS I don't like Tuna at all actually.

Mystery Hidden Inside Trying to Get Revealed

10.13.04 (1:36 am)   [edit]

After the incident happened to me a couple of weeks ago, my friend at work ( and the VP of the company ) had showed me concern about my love life. He made the comment saying that there are things that we ( asian gay men ) will not be able to understand the structure of what the white caucasian men thinking. I know that he's right.

The fact that people are growing up from different upbringing styles and culture too. The mystery is yet unknown to me.

When "things" ( I mean bad things ) happened to me for the first time or again and again, I'll never think that I will want to convert me eyes back on asian men again. Don't get me wrong. I'm not saying that I'm a racist or anything but I just feel for myself that it is not gonna work for me that way even though chances are I'd have answer for what they think easier than to unlock the mystery hidden inside.

Last night I went online again and met this guy I was chatting with a while ago, and he showed up on my screen again. He's a Thai-Chinese guy and I think that at some point we are falling for the same position and maybe suffering from the same issue. Good to know that I'm not really alone tho :p When we were chatting he just reflected the picture of myself a couple of years ago, being young and naive and reckless. Sometimes we know right there deep down inside of our heart that such things might not happen ever but with the smallest spark of fire can be the firestorm of hope.

People use other people all the time with or without their concern or realization. We are ready to fall for the trap that we might be the one who set them up by ourself. We are just our own victims I guess.

My Heart Burnt Because of Alicia Keys

10.11.04 (11:43 pm)   [edit]
Omigosh....I had an orgasm in Alicia Keys's concert last night. O boy she is great, amazing, awesome, cute, sexy, gorgeous, talented,...oh Lord if anybody went to her concert last night and think that there is any right word to describe her just let me know.

At first I thought that the concert would be more like a normal "sitting" Thai concert, but it was sooooooo wrong honey. It was a BLAST!!! It's full of energy and dynamic. If she had another gig tonight, I'd definitely go really. I would regret a lot if I wasn't there last night. I still have that picture of her lying on top of the piano and playing it engraved to my mind. O boy my sensation gland had have been expanded, stretched, exploded. O dear my heart burnt because of you.

Minor Type? Beta Male?

10.11.04 (4:15 am)   [edit]

Actually I am not the kind of person that come up to another guy, really. I mean for most of the time if I like anyone, I'll keep it to myself until one point that I know that he might like him as well, then I'll move on. And pretty much actually that they will come up on me first rather than I'll walk to them. And guess what for most of the time, they ( the in-relationships guys ) will approach me.

That made me thinking and questioning myself that : Do I am a Minor Type, a Beta Male?

After I took a close look at me, I think that maybe the fact that people might sense the easy-goingness on me, well I mean I tend not to be a drama queen or any matter. I smile easily and I think at soem point I am quite funny in my own way too. I don't mind making people laughing about me and I'll be happy and if they are happy too, then I'll be happier.

I just only live once and sometimes the world is hard enough so I don't want to make my life or anybody's harder. I tend to go with the flow without thinking about the hassle coming after. I think probably that is sort of "trying to be NO STRINGS ATTACHED". I used to do "1 time only" kind of thing before and that's because I knew that I didn't wanna have f@# buddy and just to avoid myself in getting too deep with that person. Sounds shallow but I did not get hurt with that for awhile until one point I gave up all that crazy idea and got myself hurt eventually.

Moreover I think that when I realized that I was in that situation I might just still wanted to go on even I knew in the end there wouldn't be me&him absolutely, I thought that I was depressingly happy and enjoyed being the bootie call. I never looked at that fact at all.  It's just guys who are IN-relationships but still have their dicks OUT and I just too desperate to grab that. Maybe there is nothing wrong with that only I only looked at the whole picteure with absolute tunnel vision and there is no such thing as Minor Type or Beta Male at all.

Today, I woke up with the realization that I don't want that anymore. If I'll have to be the Bootie Call again, I'd rather be Alone. I'm smiling with that thought.

 

Ode to Brand New Me : What Comes Around, Goes Around

10.07.04 (11:30 pm)   [edit]

A couple of days ago me and Mark went together having dinner that supposed to be happened during the past weekend but he is soooo addicted to his new & favourite hobby : diving, so he went to Koh Tao without telling me. But that's alright though he came back and took me out for dinner to the usual japanese restaurant, Zen.

It's been awhile since we hang out together because he was busy with work and his other half. Anyway, I updated him about me lil' self for the time when he had been away. Here is the story :

Day 1 at the gym

It was pretty weird when I came back to th eplace where was sort of my playground a couple of years ago, I think that it maybe because people there are strangers, I am a stranger. I spent half an hour on the threadmills and next 45 minutes working on my abs and then I was trying to move on the the upper body part where this guy kept looking at me. I gave him the very shy smile. ( maybe he'd think that I did not smile at alll? )

Day 2 at the gym

It was pretty weird much like day one but after I finished it, I went swimming and as soon as I walked past him wrapping my butt with navy blue towel, this time I caught him red handed looking at me. I gave him an evil grind. hehe.

Day 3 at the gym

It was pretty weird much like day one, again? but after I finished it, I felt like I wanted to do the sauna, so I just went in. Just less than 1 minute when I was there, he just walked right in. I think that I spent time in there for like  almost 30 minutes and I saw him looking at me again. Hmmm. After I finished taking shower and getting dress and leaving. He was walking in front of me so he hold the door open for me. Isn't he nice or what? Nevermind that. Wait, let's go flashback real slow when he hold that door open for me....Look at his left hand at that door!!! What is that shiny thing on one of his fingers. YES, it's the RING.

Once I finished telling this story to Mark, he was like 'Oh,..that's even better. It'll be no string attached'. Yes I know that. It is certainly what I should do if I wanna be benbehavingbadly*, but you know, I can't. Not that I am into Long-Term thing or whatever, but I think that  I don't want to do that anymore. I mean I don't want to make someone who's already in relationships to cheat on his boyfriend. What comes around, goes around and I did enough bad karma already and I am repaying that debt.

 

If I ain't got free tickets

10.07.04 (7:30 am)   [edit]

O yeah..I come back to work now for a second day and yeahhh tomorrow is Friday. Hmm..but my joy would be I got 2 free tickets to Alicia Keys' Concert this coming Monday. Honestly I'm not a big fan of her but I found her music quite good actually, especially with that song : If I ain't got you

Some people want it all
but i don't want nothing all
if it ain't you baby ,if i ain't got you baby
some people want diamond rings
some just want everything
but everything means nothing if i ain't got you

Hmm...actually the first time I really listened to her music was that when I was at Koby's place. Her songs are quite sentimental to me though plus her look and that she plays her own music too all that add up to form my favourite in this female artist. And guess what, whom I will take to the concert with. Yea it's him. Don't just blame me though, I'm just trying to be professional, well I mean adolescent for the whole situation with him so when I mentioned that she's coming to town he was asking if I could get free tickets or something and with my ability and all I can manage to get that. Hehehe.

Anyway, people I'm off to practice my voice for the concert now. More real interesting update laterrr.

 

 

Oye..I'm sick ( but not twisted )

10.05.04 (3:11 am)   [edit]

Oh...dear. I have been sick since last sunday. I just finished my gym and left for the sky train and right there at the skywalk from MBK to the train station the SUPER HEAVY DOWNPOUR of rainstrom had hit the area without warning, urhhh..actually with a strike of lightning once, all of my back was wet from head to toe. Almost an hour later I got home...and the result was that night I had my nose running like tap water. I couldn't sleep at all so I had to call in seick and today ( Tuesday ) also. Oye, oye, oye...bye for now, I'll go clean up my face. Take care of yourself good everyone.

Ciao.