Which Famous Homosexual Are You?
07.29.04 (11:39 pm) [edit]How spiffing!
You're Alexander the Great!
Yeah, baby. You were the King of Macedonia, and conqueror of much of the world; you're responsible for the spread of Christianity, as well as Hellenistic society and even the Roman Empire. Your power was feared for thousands of miles around.
And how gay were you. When you'd conquered Persia, you fell in love with a male courtier from that court - scandalous in those days, because the Persians were believed to be uncivilised barbarians.
You were always really in love with your boyhood friend, Hephaestion, and when he died you were grief-stricken to a legendary degree: convinced that he would live on after death, you passed away soon afterwards.
Which Famous Homosexual Are You?
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Powerful Experience
07.29.04 (9:44 am) [edit]Yesterday was the first time in many years to watch an artist creates beautiful artwork, he is a very famous Thai artist "[url=http://www.yesimages.com/artb...]Taweesak Sritongdee[/url] ". His work has been displayed in many galleries in Bangkok, magazines and music video. I consider his work as an non-obscene erotic art. He drew many naked men, very sensual and yes very sexy.
His drawing is now on displayed at House Cafe at House Rama, RCA. Many people said that it was not so appropiate for a restaurant. Well, who said that pastel-abstract is not suitable for dining space, anyway.
The Experience from watching him used just plain yellow chalk on blackboard was so amazing and very powerful, I mean his stroke and eveything he did was so powerful that I almost forgot to breathe.
The last time I watched an artist "performing" was when I was a freshmen at Chula when my friend painted a huge cut out for annual play "Manee lae Chujai". I was stunned!!!
Anyway, here are few sample of my favourite artist, Taweesak Sritongdee.
Looks and Loving Soul
07.25.04 (9:08 am) [edit]Tonight I just feel like I had been sleeping too much for the first time in months, well just that I felt tired lately and I start to enhance my dark circles around my eyes. According to my problem I turned to sleep, sleep and sleep. Slleping Beauty, hehe not me but I wish. Only hope that I'll look fresh on Monday.
As the weekend full of sleeping treatment for my beauty I turned TV on and watched Nip/Tuck for the first time. It was the episode when a son of a main surgeon sort of hit a girl in his school but it turned out that she's a wrong person so he made his way to the hospital to see observe what he had done.
At the hospital, he met the girl mother who's christian scientist ( A person who believe natural healing and so on - this is what I think ) so she denied all kind of surgery or medication and relied on praying. Once she see the boy in the room she explain him about her belief and faith. My point of saying is when she told the boy that when her daughter got acne or something and the fact that they are christian scientist so she's not allowed to use any medication. She told her daughter that it might be something that it's all illusion and it'd go away and no matter how bad it looks but it's her [b]beauty that is shown from the inside.[/b]
I really like that line and isn't it ironic that the show is all about plastic surgery but these character was talking about beauty from the inside.
We have to admit that we all live in the world today that look can be [b]Everything[/b], work or lifestyle speaking. People will always look for beauty and it is true that many time it's just look only on its surface and we might forget what is on the inside.
Do we forget what is more important, Good Look or Great Heart ?
I went on further to seek an opinion on this and this is what I got from [url=http://www.gaywired.com]Gaywired[/url] :
"...[i]beauty is such a hot commodity. It is nothing new, but we spend so much time ranting about other things that are supposedly the “important things in life” I don’t know how anyone can keep it straight. When was the last time you watched a sitcom or movie where the underlying moral or message was “No one gets anywhere in this world unless they are so beautiful they have to live on greens, complete a three hour a day exercise routine, and still sign off on airbrushing for the final edit of their work[/i]."
"[i]Those messages are true, or maybe more accurately they should be true. But are they true? Don’t some models end up addicted to crystal meth to stay thin? And when was the last time a sensitive guy who respected women like Rupert Everett cast as an action hero?[/i]"
"...[i]'looks fade but a happy heart and loving soul will last forever.'With all the new advances in nipping and tucking that might not even be true anymore[/i]."
The author was giving some criteria that are quite interesting about what makes guys( or girls ) sexy. Here what she's talking about :
[b]1. Honesty [/b]– a guy who will tell the truth even if it is going to make him look bad is a guy I can introduce to mom.
[b]2. Integrity[/b]- a girl who will follow someone who drops a twenty in the mall is worthy of a second date.
[b]3. Character[/b]- someone who is confident in what they believe in and is willing to say so, no matter who the audience. That is a real man (or woman.)
[b]4. Tolerance [/b]– everyone has an opinion, but the intelligent person realizes there is room in this world for more than just their own personal views.
[b]5. Respect [/b]– what ever happened to good manners? No chewing with your mouth open, holding the door for your date, and smiling at strangers. Someone who respects him/herself has respect for others.
[b]6. Sense of Humor [/b]– I want to be able to laugh with him. What good is a life without someone to enjoy it with?
[b]7. Compassion [/b]– we are talking about genuine sympathy and empathy. I don’t think someone who finds it funny to see a kid falling off a bike is cute. Or the AIDS crisis in Africa just “isn’t his problem.” Come on, why do people view those who don’t care as cool? If being cold is really cool then move to the South Pole.
[b]8. Romance [/b]– Someone who is romantic and likes to be romanced… even if it is just a little. Let’s be realistic: it can be difficult for gay men to master being romantic. Men tend to be less romantic than women historically, so romance is sometimes viewed as a feminine thing. Plus you have two men trying to figure out who should do what for whom without coming across as, or making their partner feel, less than masculine. But as with romance for any couple, trial and error works best so this should be an area of growth….
What about [b][i]yours[/i][/b]?
You can read the whole article [url=http://www.gaywired.com/artic...]here[/url] .
Mood for Love
07.23.04 (1:36 am) [edit]In the midst of chaosity in my life but I still find time for Love, not like I have someone ( well, let's just say that he's someone else's ) but I'm in the "Mood for Love".
For me I think that no matter how worst the situation I am in is, but if I feel love then I know in my heart that I'll get through it in the end. Yes, for me, Love will keep me alive.
Here by I quoted something from [url=http://library.lovingyou.com/...]Lovingyou.com[/url]
Love is in the air, everyone.
One Reason Why People Get Disappointed
07.20.04 (3:51 am) [edit]It is just that people tend to hang on what makes them comfortable and once it disappears, people tend to get hurt from the expectation they have that whatsoever.
My conclusion is that :
[b]Comfort [/b] =leads to= [b]Hanging On[/b]
[b]Hanging On[/b] =leads to= [b]Expectation[/b]
[b]Far From Expectation [/b]=leads to= [b]Disappointment[/b]
What exactly is my purpose for this post?
Hmm, I'm expecting to keep on updating my blog because it makes me feel comfortableeeeee :P
Be Happy Everyone.
Aids Conference, Moneyboy and Thai Things
07.17.04 (2:21 am) [edit]Last night I went out to Silom for a drink with a friend, Koby and it was packed down in soi 4 even though it's half past midnight. I was told that it's because of the International Aids Conference. I gotta believe him so. Koby went on telling more about the conference at the Impact Arena that it's like walking in gay neighbourhood, gay club or even a bath house because everybody was cruising and cruising, hmm..how did I miss this one?
Koby striked me with this question : Why Thai people are so much tolerent about prostituition?
It's like a big sharp slap in my face not like I were moneyboy ( male prostitute ) but it was that he's right. Even myself realized that there is such thing going on but just like most of Thai people when something is going on but has no effect on us why bother. "It's none of our business" is somewhat people say.
He said that it's something that we shouldn't let that happen and amazingly there are new kids coming into this sextrade more and more...
My only comment towards this conversation is that we didn't teach our people to realize how valuable our self esteem are. Another additional comment is that as the society evolve each passing days, we somehow forget to evolve our value system too and as consuming society, things can be very materialistic and when someone get easy money out of doing the trade, then why bother working hard for 20-30 days a month just to get so small amount of money and and propbably if someone has choose to be in that business they might make the same amount of money out of half the time they can make money for just regular job.
Koby still went on, he asked me about their visions like what would they do in the next 5 years from now?
For sure today Hustler A can still make huge amount of money while he still has that look, that body, or that whatsoever.
Tunnel vision we said, I don't think that that person was not thinking wisely enough, if not he's not gonna enter the business. As long as he can make money out of that we'd continue doing that without any precaution towards bad days to come.
So I had come to realization that we teach our own people to have this tunnel vision. We will do anything that looks good on the surface and might not care what would it be after. For example, probably 5-6 years ago before the APEC meeting in Thailand, September last year, there was this huge mess in front of Lumpinee Park. Anybody can blame the subway construction but just a week before the whole thing they just managed to beautift all the area jsut like what you can see today. Isn't that amazing that just 7-days after 5-6 years long. Maybe there is such thing called "Thai Things".
Love Is All Around
07.16.04 (4:22 am) [edit]A couple of days ago, I talked to a friend through MSN messenger, as usual. He knows pretty much about me and I knew somewhat about him, anyway, he asked me about my love affair. Hmm...after my disaster Saturday passed, I am adjusting my attitude a lil bit according to my situation. My friend asked me about my Norwegian Sunshine.
Well, he's back to Norway for 5-6 weeks and will be back a couple of days after his birthday, August 16. And I thought that I would really miss him badly, well honsetly I still miss him but not like that I miss him because he's gone but I miss him as my usual basis. Even though he's away but I still feel him here with me. Isn't that so sweet of me or what ?!?!
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A Friend is Someone Who Knows The Song in Your Heart And Can Sing It Back To You When You Have Forgotten The Words.
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Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength while loving someone deeply gives you courage.
Lao Tzu
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Be Happy Everyone.
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A Wake Up Call Towards AIDS and WORLD AIDS CONFERENCE IN THAILAND
07.08.04 (9:07 am) [edit]After a few weeks of emotionally up and down, you can call it 'that time of the month', even though it's full moon :p. Anyway, I got interupted by the striking text message from a friend whom I didn't see for almost a year. Hearing from him is surprising enough but this time it was much more than that.
In his message, he told me that he had tested HIV positive last week and he needed to tell me, as friend and someone he used to have sex with. I was shocked and became completely speechless, for more than half an hour. Until, I read his message again and agian to see that i was not misunderstanding, not that I was worried about myself but that I never have anyone so close to be infected by the deadly disease before, he is my friend.
Many hours later, I talked to [b]my Nordic INCOGNITO Lover[/b] about what happened, I shouldn't have let him know but he has the right to know that as much as I need from my friend. I sensed that he's a little bit worried about that too, even though we didn't have unsafe sex, but that thing can happen, right? Who knows it's could be one in the million.
So, the next day I went to the nearby hospital and got tested and I am negative. The whole thing is my totally new experience and realize how close is HIV to myself. I should be careful with whatever that can lead to this unhappy happening to my friends and more than millions people around the planet. I wish that I can do anything to help my friend and I also think that he might definitely need lots of encouragement and support from everyone, but it's just when he's ready to take on the world once agian...
Here is some interseting fact about AIDS situation here in Bangkok, Thailand :
Since 1984 til April 30th, 2004, Bangkok has people who has AIDS for 25,892. Reported dead 7,259 and still fighting the disease 18,633. The Symtomatic HIV has total number of 8,258. 738 were reported passed away and 7,520 are still coping with it.
The total number of AIDS and Symtomatic HIV throughout the country for the same period of time is 312,429. There are 228,246 full stage AIDS patients and 84,183 Symtomatic HIV patients. 62,726 are reported dead.
78% of AIDS patients are inthe working age of 20-39. 26% among those 78% patients are patients between 25-29 years old. Those who are 30-35 years old come in second place at 25% after with 30-35 years of age at 15% and between 20-24 years old are 9%. The lowest one are kids between their 10-14 years old at 0.13%
That's the statistic for Thailand now which means that we have approximately 15,622 infected patients everyyear. That's a lot!!! I only hope that the number should be slower down and hope not to hear that anyone I know or it would be the best that no one got infected by this deadly disease ever again.
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[b]What the World needs now is Love, Sweet Love.[/b]
A Question Towards Love
07.02.04 (11:09 pm) [edit]Two or three days ago I had a chance to talk to my colleague, actually it's sort of slipped out though. I never told her much about my life but we are there for each other for all the time and that day I told her my story...
... to her surprise, she wondered how I can put up with all those things that keeps happening to me again and again. She striked me with one question : [i]Do that bad thing keep repeating to me making me afraid of love ?[/i]
[b]History is good for record but it can't keep me falling in love once again.[/b]
My answer is simple, No. No matter what's happening to me. I might have cried, I might be sad but once it's over I'll have my chin up and walk tall. The Love I give to someone, no matter he takes it or rejects it, it's still mine. I didn't lose it, I still have it with me better or worse.
[b]Love is something subjective, consider no matter it's just given or taken, it's still belongs to the person who grants it.[/b]