Where is the pool ? : Thought after DJ's Station last night
05.30.04 (8:14 am) [edit]Today is my co worker, my friend's birthday so we decide to spent time together last night for a concert and dinner in gay neighborhood. It was fun though comparing to the other night birthday party/karaoke at SF music city, which I guess two of us still got some hangover from. hehehe. BTW-my friend is a girl.
So it was her first time in gay neighborhood but she has many gay friends, she was so curious about gay scene pretty much so I decided to give her a crash at gay bar down in Silom after the concert.
We went to the Telephone bar in soi 4 first for late dinner before we head clubbing at DJ's Station. And it was my first time there well, I mean I'm not really up to this bar except in a company of my friends, but what the hell. We just wanna have fun :)
It was not so crowded like it used to be especially at the end of the month but it was ok for me though. Anyway, I just take my friend into Bangkok gay scene for the very first time and just comfort her when a guy walked just by half an inch from her boobs : "Don't worry,dear. the only reason that they wanna touch them just to see that those of yours are REAL!!"
And after we had a few drinks, she was struck by the image of half naked muscle guys kissing each other, which is very common to me but she was jaw dropping for some reason. Well, isn't that weird that you can see those half naked men gathering in one place which are a lot more you can see at the pool or at the beach everywhere...hmmm nice huh?
The Look of Love
05.24.04 (8:02 am) [edit]Love...The Idea of Love...
What you think that it is Love...
Your Love...The Real Reason for Your Love...
Or it is just another Excuse for making you Happy...
Your Lover...The Real Image of your Lover...
Is it the same Person...
Great Expectation...Least Anticipation...
Have you ever Realize that one day you won't get everything you ever Expect...
Happy Together...Walking Away from Each Other...
If you are Willing to Love someone, would you Try make him Stay...
As If...What If...
Only If...
The Look of Love...The Look of Lust...
The Look on Your Face When Never Return...
Disconnected!!
05.22.04 (10:50 pm) [edit]After 2 weeks of no blog at all because the technical problem which I think was from the server of the internet provider that I use, namely TRUE. Anyway, baby I'm back to my dearest [i]benontheblog[/i] I really miss bloggin' because it's the only space that I can say whatever I want whatever I feel.
For the past 2 weeks,honestly I didn't have much good feeling at all. Just because that I was so confused with things and people around me, seems like bad habit to me but I just can't help it.
sometimes there is something that you really wanna say but you can't jsut because that youi can't. And I think that there is something wrong with me too that my high temper gland doesn't seem to work functionally or I just become emotionally dead. Aghhhhh
Anyway, feel great to be back :D
Bangkok : The City of Crowded Singles
05.14.04 (12:36 am) [edit]Bangkok, The Capital of Thailand, the city of 10 million people from every walks of life. Some are happy living here and some aren't. Some just choose to be here but some just got stuck here and can't find way out.
I' ve living here since I was born in 1979. When I look at the pictures of me back then the scenery of my neigbourhood looked pretty much like some provines in the middle part of the kingdom maybe like Ayudthaya or something. But things have been changing all along.
Today, about 4 months away to my 25th birthday, like always, I got stuck with what I heard from my friends or other people, it's just that a friend of someone whom I know, he's said that he just got frustrated by the fact that he has no [i]boyfriend[/i] yet. As far as I came out for 4 years I can say that I was in relationship for a couple of times and each one didn't exist for a year, except my sort-of-relationship-what soever-which-I-can't-say- that-it's-a-RELATIONSHIP.
Anyway, I honestly have that period of worrying too much for being single, but at some point, and the more I think about it, it would hurt my own feeling a lil bit more. So I just stop whining about this non-sense and come to realize that I am not the only one who's not in the relationship. My friend once said that there are more than 50 percent of gay population in Bangkok who are singles. So the fact that I feel lonely sometimes doesn't mean that I am really [i]alone[/i] because there there are many people out there feeling the same way as me. But the fact that I am single is not the end of the world right?
But I just wonder why one of my friend told me yesterday after a trip back to America saying that "as long as anybody is not fat there would definitely be attractive to someone" ...ehh...was he trying to imply me anything? Of course, I'm not fat and I'd consider myself above average guy ( I was rated 8.5-9 but by his scale he only gave me 7.5-8 which is a lil annoying ) What is he trying to tell me?
:?:
silent sigh
05.09.04 (10:36 am) [edit]Just went back home from dinner and movie with a friend, should I use the term "friend" for this guy, honestly I don't know. One thing I realize from this individual was that Farang or Thai, they are all the same and I am the only one who set up all those conclusion saying that Farang are less emotional. He proved me wrong.
It is how amazing that when you are bored and meet another bored person, especially when he's boring as he's bored, finally you will be less bored.
Anyway, I went to see " Walking Tall", at the beginning I thought that it's over an ok movie but at the end I'd have my word back. You know it ends a lil bit tacky but the only good thing I brought this up today because the intention of this movie which is, I think, suitable for Thailand at the moment. We need somebody, a certain Somebody who can cope with all th eproblem in this country. We see now that Up hill economy doesn't help anything, people killing people everyday. All we need now is an effective Prime Minister not a Businessman.
Look at the newspaper today, PM was in the south hoping that he could cool things off a bit, but guess what they didn't stop actually. Sorry folks new roof for masjid can't stop them wanting to hurt more people. Somebody please tell me what exactly wrong down there.
Sigh. Isn't that ridiculous that people killing their own country people for some reason, who know maybe they don't even know why they did that for...
Just a [b]silent sigh [/b]from me.
Where is the Love* 1.1 : Same thought after The Passion
05.04.04 (10:22 am) [edit]In many things that happened not even to Thailand or mankind, there might be some reasons behind. One of them, according to my own opinion, is stupidity, well I didn't mean to make this sounds terrible or anything. I hope you'll understand what I mean.
As the mist of tragedy in the south of Thailand had eventually faded away. I went to see the movie, The Passion of the Christ the other night and after I walked out the theatre, the very first thing that came to my mind was that this was again that people who didn't know much about anything, maybe they were frightened, maybe they were fear of certain thing namely things that they didn't know. People do that to another people everyday. Jesus Christ, That boy in Laramie, the 107 of the violence in the south all these are the victims of people who know less. Some died willingly, some didn't. But I think that they should get the explanation about all this thing.
I strongly believe that edcuation is needed at some certain level, not really academically speaking but at least about the fact about everything.
There will be many young kids out there whom will be mentally abused for killing each other and themself. How long this tragedy will keep on repeating itself, how long...