happy new year is ...

12.31.03 (12:39 am)   [edit]

Happy New Year,
in Thailand we would say "[i]Sawaddee Pee Mai[/i]"

So [b]Sawaddee Pee Mai [/b]to all you guys!!!

See ya in 2004.

The Cloud no.9: The Day Socrates meets Sidhatta - Part 2

12.26.03 (1:37 am)   [edit]
...After the poison was drunk readily and cheerfully. All the honourable men in the room, after they had no longer hold back their tears any longer. Phaedo covered his faceand wept, Crito had tears streaming down his face, Apollodorus Broke out in loud cries of grief.

Socrates walked about the cell until he felt his legs growing stiffer and stiffer. He finally lay down on his cot. The chill were rising from his feet to his calves and then his thigh.

"I am growing cold." Socrates said.
"When the poison reaches the heart, it'll be the end." The Jailer told the honourable Socrates.

Socrates did not answer. And then cover his face with his blanket. Things were flashing back to his mind again. He strcked with one situation on the extraordinary afternoon not so long before...




It was one day in the year we call 399 B.C. Two men met by chance not so far outside the wall of Athens. One was young, the other was old. They both had no business to attend in Acropolis that day.

The young man name's Sidhatta. It was the conversation that day that he had with the older man. Although Sidhatta was young, he enlightened himself as being quite learned. He had devoted his life to show peolpe the way out of of mysery.

He took things in the middle way, it seems, we could see him when he walked through the crowded street, he kept humble unlike the most so-called interlectual of Athens who always have their noses held high in the air. For Sidhatta thought that he's no virtuos than other men, and therefore than they were.

Next to him, the older man whose name was Socrates, looked clownish and grotesque. Socrates was 70 years old and probably had none of young Sidhatta's dignity, he looked as coarse and as earthy as a peasant.

"What brings you to the outside wall of Athens,Socrates" The young one asked.
"It's such a beautiful day and it will be such ashame just to lock myself inside the city wall." Socrates said.

(to be continued)

The Cloud no.9 :The Day Socrates meets Sidhatta- part 1

12.24.03 (8:22 pm)   [edit]
Now the hour of sunset was towards this group of people. Socrates and his friends fell silent. Soon the man entered, looking pale and unhappy.

He went up to Socrates and said "You are the noblest and best of all whoever came to this place. I must give you this now and beg you not to be angry with me. Others are to blame for this not I."

All the men burst into tears, and went out of cell.

"You drink, and then you you walk about until your legs are heavy and then you lie down, and the poison will act." The jailer said to Socrates.

thin line between happiness and loneliness

12.24.03 (3:05 am)   [edit]
As the 16 hours train ride back from Thai-Malaysian border yesterday, something had poped up in my mind. It was December 23,only 2 days until x'mas, and I still had no plan yet. In my mind I was so afraid that I might be lonely again like last year but thing was last year i just wanted to be with my self and then I realized that it's not healthy at all, anyway this year, which i consider that should be my fun year so far. It is so up and down.But mostly happy.

Back on the [i]ASS-HURTING [/i]train ride, I was looking outside and talked to my co-worker "x'mas is Romantic,isn't it?" I was convinced that she was the most emotional person in the office and i began to believed like everyone else. And then she said "There is a very thin line between happiness and loneliness in this special day, no matter what makes you cry,happiness or loneliness, you cry with joy. That's the spirit of x'mas."

Even though the circumstance is a lot different but to me my feeling is still the same. I sometimes think that x'mas is all about the couples. Sitting cuddling together or something. Surprisingly,the weather here in Bangkok still cold(er) than it is before, I think that it makes this time of year more special than ever before.

Someone on our train said something about how they gonna celebrate the event. It consisted of vine and fruitcake, video renting, partying together with group of close friends.

Since she finished her words I thought that maybe I'm the one who sit on that little line cry with joy, laugh with tears. And then I realize that it's truely X'Mas spirit.

[b]Merry X'Mas.[/b]

The Outside World

12.15.03 (10:05 pm)   [edit]
As i got this job when i was still wearing monk's robe some of my monk friends said that the reason why i got this job was because they were afraid that they would committ bad [i]kharma[/i] if they didn't get me this job.

It's something that i got from the attending period in the monastry which are meditation and conciousness. So at the moment that everybody is busy with the Thailand Premiere of The Lord of the Rings : The Return of the King. teh very first day for me here was very dizzy so that i really wanted to go back to the monastry.

"The outside world is soo crazy." that was what i thought that day.

And i couldn't imagine the intensity of politics in the workplace as much as this one before.And seems like there will be more and more.

But surprisingly how they can work together in this tiny office. Working with alot of people is ok with me as long as they know where the border is.

Many of these workaholic work for more than 15 hours a day and even party afterwards with themselves. That is something that i can't do. I think at some point i still need my space. Even though i have no after work activity yet but after 6.30 is MY TIME.

and i think that many Thais do it that way.Is it culture thing or it's purely personal?


ben-off-theblock

12.15.03 (3:21 am)   [edit]
It's been my pleasure to share my tranquilising moment with everyone. It's been very peaceful there at the monastry. all of my days consisted of chanting, praying, meditating....ehhh, should i add the 17-hour-sleeping with that too? Hehehe.

At first it was very uncomfortable feeling that went against you especially when you are not ready to get to the different world. Everything was in slow motion.Slow enough for you to do anything that you imagine you always want to do-for me were thinking about my life and reading.

I am not good reader at all,so after all the years passing by i bought so many books that i haven't finished reading them yet included huge piles of magazine.

Anyway, i took this advantage and started to read. Surpringly, I found this book "Socrates". I heard about him but hardly knew about him until i had this chance of read it. And I think that because of this book that made me got this job at the film distributor company.

Besides reading my new hobby is writing,well i write my diary but it's something like my personal point of view towards my non-existing love life, whatever "it" means.

Anyway, i think that it's enough for my first posting and hope a lil' piece of my life would be interesting somehow.